I started reading Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge for the second time today. Not meaning that I've read it once before but meaning that I started it once before, couldn't finish it because I got frustrated with it, and I am now going to start from the beginning again with a more open mind. I hope.
Any who, I'm working my way through Genesis for the bajillionth-ish time in the past 6 or 7 months, looking at Eve again. It dawned on me this time though, that as humans, we never read the same thing twice. Not literally at least...
The way it hit me was this. I have read Genesis at least three times this month alone, well at least up until chapter 5, and I was in three very different states when I can remember them.
The first time, I was upset with God. I was confused about what His plans for the semester are and I was stressed about finishing graduate applications. When I was in that mind set, I was overwhelmed with the devastation of original sin.
The second time around, I happened to be feeling really good after talking to a really close friend, and I was blessed with a calming feeling of being a woman, and being created in God's image.
When I read it today, everything seemed a little more, vivid. Genesis 2:23 -- "At last!" the man exclaimed. "This one is bone from my bone, and flesh from my flesh! She will be called 'woman,' because she was taken from 'man.'" -- I never expected to be so overwhelmed by this verse, but my generally self-sufficient mindset lost to the will of God and I've been feeling awkwardly obedient, and with a desire to serve.
Right now, I'm not quite sure what that means. But I think that I'm going to leave Genesis alone for a little while and maybe look a little more at Proverbs 4.
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