I feel completely unsettled about this year.
I look back on it and I say, "I have no clue where this year went," and I feel as though I've been so busy that I've forgotten to enjoy it. At the same time, I look at this year and see all of the things that I didn't accomplish and only see my wasted time when I was busy enjoying.
I happened to be listening to Norah Jones just now and this song was on in the background. I feel like the chorus part is a cry from my soul somedays, and other days I'm in total awe of, well, everything.
Norah Jones - Humble Me
Went out on a limb
Gone too far
Broke down at the side of the road
Stranded at the outskirts and the sun's creepin' up
Baby's in the backseat
Still fast asleep
Dreamin' of better days
I don't want to call you but you're all I have to turn to
What do you say
When it's all gone away?
Baby I didn't mean to hurt you
Truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
No matter how hard you resist it
It never rains when you want it to
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
I'm on my knees empty
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
So please, please, please forgive me
Baby Teresa she's got your eyes
I see you all the time
When she asks about her daddy
I never know what to say
Heard you kicked the bottle
And you helped build the church
You carry an honest wage
Is it true you have someone keeping you company?
What do you say
When it's all gone away?
Baby I didn't mean to hurt you
Truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
No matter how hard you resist it
It never rains when you want it to
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
I'm on my knees empty
You humble me Lord
You humble me Lord
So, please, please, forgive me
You humble me
I hate it so much when you look back and wonder where all the time went. I know what you mean. I'm stuck in a phase like that. On one hand, I want this year to be over so that I can have the baby already. On the other hand, I see things I can't or didn't get to do with Liberty that I really wanted to and I feel bad about it.
ReplyDeleteI love you sweetie. Just be happy and know that you are young and even though some things may seem like a waste of your time or maybe you just wasted time away, when all is said and done, everything would have been done in the right time in the right place to get you exactly where you are supposed to be.
There. That is my insightful thought for the year :)